i tested even though last week i had gotten a negative and figured this first month was out. i hadn't charted, didn't know my ovulation date, and was fresh off bcp...i had no idea what to make of cycle 1. but i tested because i hadn't gotten my period, but instead had just a small bit of spotting the thursday before, then the following monday. when i told this to mr. h3b he said, test!. i don't think he was excited...i think he wanted me to stop asking him if i thought i should test. so i did, at 9 pm with unconcentrated urine.
the blue dye went through the positive/negative space and started showing the control line. but instead of being a stark white punch to the uterus and emotions, there was something still there. being that i had only taken two other tests in my life, i don't have a lot of experience reading them. i said aloud, huh...well i don't know what to think. mr. h3b came bounding in (excitement? still unclear). he saw something, too.
it wasn't a line. it was a shadow of the faintest blurry grayish line you can possibly imagine. and that's pretty much what i thought was going on. this "line" shadow was pretend. i decided it meant not pregnant right now, but maybe. so i spent the next two days studying the "line", looking at tests on google images, and thinking about the state of my body. it was annoying to agonize over this...either i was, or i wasn't. no amount of photoshop could change the picture, no internet help could tell me what i saw, and the only solution was to wait.
so i did.
super faint 2nd blue line
2 comments:
They say that women sometimes experience spotting when the baby/egg attaches itself to the uterine wall.
yeah, i imagine it was implantation spotting.
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