today i am 6 weeks 3 days.
since finding out, thoughts of being pregnant come across my mind about every minute or so. the day we found out, officially, mr. h3b suggested going to pick out some books at the library and to buy what to expect what you're expecting. he's so smart. although, i read WTEWYE when i was 14. so, i've been reading up on symptoms for me and what the baby is doing right now and he joins in to learn about the milestones.
things to note at 6 weeks:
i am hungry.all.of.the.time. last night when mr. h3b picked me up from work i barely made it in the car before requesting a quick trip to the drive-thru for 2 small cheeseburgers. no fries, no soda. i don't eat fast food all that much, but deny me cheeseburgers and hear me roar.
i am tired. i go to bed between 9 and 10:15 pm..about 2 hours earlier than 2 weeks ago. i hit a wall everyday at 1:45 in the afternoon and if i were home, i'd gladly take an afternoon nap.
while i'm not officially battling extreme bloat, i can't suck in the little pudge i used to be able to. there's bloat there, i know, so i'm rockin' a hair-tied button on my jeans for comfort today.
exercise is harder. last night i got in 4.75 miles of running, walking, and stair climbing at the track. it's great, but i can't get through two laps without feeling exhausted. my energy has been zapped. i also spotted someone eating a sandwich on the bleachers and wondered to myself if he'd let me have a bite.
but i don't care about these things. i'm so excited about the little clump of cells, i welcome sleepy, chubby, morning sickness filled days.
bring it on, baby.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
the day we found out: july 18, 2009
after the waiting game of a mere two days (it felt so much longer), i took a test on saturday, july 18, 2009. i wanted to use first morning urine, so when i awoke at 7:40 am with a full bladder, there was no going back. i had mentally prepared myself to see the words "not pregnant". i just didn't believe that the "line" from the blue test was really a line. as bad those stark white spaces were, i imagined actually seeing the words to be that much worse, so i talked myself out of believing and prepared for "the worst". (this was, after all, month one...)
my favorite part about finding out is that you are in the bathroom right after you pee and you get the most amazing news of your life. it's not like when you get engaged, or when you get married, or any other fancy moment you remember. this moment comes with a urine soaked stick and visions of your toiletries.
i promised myself i wouldn't look at the test while the hourglass worked it's magic. so i waited, heart pounding more than it ever has, and then i looked down. it was 7:45 am and i saw "pregnant". i looked at myself in the mirror and did a cartoon-esque eye rub, not believing the words on the test. i giggled and smiled and i picked up that test to get a closer look, still in shock. i stood there for just a few minutes soaking it all in, before running to the bedroom to wake mr. h3b.
he was sound asleep and i cuddled up next to him, tapping his shoulder. nothing. i put the stick in front of his face (mm, urine) and nudged him a bit more. still nothing. finally i said, h3b, don't you want to see it? he mumbled, confused, and as he rolled over i flipped on the bedside lamp to see his reaction. even with blurry, sleepy vision he knew what it said and he looked at me and smiled. we're going to have a baby!, he said.
and i melted.
my favorite part about finding out is that you are in the bathroom right after you pee and you get the most amazing news of your life. it's not like when you get engaged, or when you get married, or any other fancy moment you remember. this moment comes with a urine soaked stick and visions of your toiletries.
i promised myself i wouldn't look at the test while the hourglass worked it's magic. so i waited, heart pounding more than it ever has, and then i looked down. it was 7:45 am and i saw "pregnant". i looked at myself in the mirror and did a cartoon-esque eye rub, not believing the words on the test. i giggled and smiled and i picked up that test to get a closer look, still in shock. i stood there for just a few minutes soaking it all in, before running to the bedroom to wake mr. h3b.
he was sound asleep and i cuddled up next to him, tapping his shoulder. nothing. i put the stick in front of his face (mm, urine) and nudged him a bit more. still nothing. finally i said, h3b, don't you want to see it? he mumbled, confused, and as he rolled over i flipped on the bedside lamp to see his reaction. even with blurry, sleepy vision he knew what it said and he looked at me and smiled. we're going to have a baby!, he said.
and i melted.
back up a week to wednesday, july 15
today i tested.
i tested even though last week i had gotten a negative and figured this first month was out. i hadn't charted, didn't know my ovulation date, and was fresh off bcp...i had no idea what to make of cycle 1. but i tested because i hadn't gotten my period, but instead had just a small bit of spotting the thursday before, then the following monday. when i told this to mr. h3b he said, test!. i don't think he was excited...i think he wanted me to stop asking him if i thought i should test. so i did, at 9 pm with unconcentrated urine.
the blue dye went through the positive/negative space and started showing the control line. but instead of being a stark white punch to the uterus and emotions, there was something still there. being that i had only taken two other tests in my life, i don't have a lot of experience reading them. i said aloud, huh...well i don't know what to think. mr. h3b came bounding in (excitement? still unclear). he saw something, too.
it wasn't a line. it was a shadow of the faintest blurry grayish line you can possibly imagine. and that's pretty much what i thought was going on. this "line" shadow was pretend. i decided it meant not pregnant right now, but maybe. so i spent the next two days studying the "line", looking at tests on google images, and thinking about the state of my body. it was annoying to agonize over this...either i was, or i wasn't. no amount of photoshop could change the picture, no internet help could tell me what i saw, and the only solution was to wait.
so i did.
super faint 2nd blue line
i tested even though last week i had gotten a negative and figured this first month was out. i hadn't charted, didn't know my ovulation date, and was fresh off bcp...i had no idea what to make of cycle 1. but i tested because i hadn't gotten my period, but instead had just a small bit of spotting the thursday before, then the following monday. when i told this to mr. h3b he said, test!. i don't think he was excited...i think he wanted me to stop asking him if i thought i should test. so i did, at 9 pm with unconcentrated urine.
the blue dye went through the positive/negative space and started showing the control line. but instead of being a stark white punch to the uterus and emotions, there was something still there. being that i had only taken two other tests in my life, i don't have a lot of experience reading them. i said aloud, huh...well i don't know what to think. mr. h3b came bounding in (excitement? still unclear). he saw something, too.
it wasn't a line. it was a shadow of the faintest blurry grayish line you can possibly imagine. and that's pretty much what i thought was going on. this "line" shadow was pretend. i decided it meant not pregnant right now, but maybe. so i spent the next two days studying the "line", looking at tests on google images, and thinking about the state of my body. it was annoying to agonize over this...either i was, or i wasn't. no amount of photoshop could change the picture, no internet help could tell me what i saw, and the only solution was to wait.
so i did.
super faint 2nd blue linepregnant
seeing that word is amazing.
being pregnant, so far, is pretty amazing, too. if you count the faintest of lines, i've technically known about this pregnancy for one week. it's already been an emotional rollercoaster and i'm only a week in. but i'm as ready as can be to feel pregnant, to be pregnant...and i can't wait to hold my baby in my arms after this journey.
being pregnant, so far, is pretty amazing, too. if you count the faintest of lines, i've technically known about this pregnancy for one week. it's already been an emotional rollercoaster and i'm only a week in. but i'm as ready as can be to feel pregnant, to be pregnant...and i can't wait to hold my baby in my arms after this journey.
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