this is crazy.
i am 34 weeks! that's close to baby time! and you better beleive i'm feeling it now. i feel the need to get things done, to clean, to organize...everything out of order bugs me. the problem? i am so sore can barely do any of it. i went from, ouch this is pretty painful to o.m.g. i cannot do anything without wincing and doubling over in pain. my feet feel like i am walking on tiny razors. my hips are stuck. they don't move properly and i can't roll over in bed or walk around easily. there's so much pressure and i feel like one big bruise.
and. AND. i found more stretchmarks. i was inspecting my legs for puffiness and saw a mark on my calf. then i found more...on both legs. stretch marks. on my calves. pair these with my thigh, butt, boob, and now belly marks and it's about all i can take. i started crying because i just wasn't prepared for this. so big, so heavy and now marks that turn to scars forever? on my legs? it wasn't pretty (the marks or the crying). mr. h3b did all he could to be supportive, but it's probably not easy to understand this kind of reaction when not hormonally charged and bigger than ever before. his solution to everything? breastfeeding! i will get skinnier. my arms will be toned again. and magically, my calf stretch marks will go away due to my ability to feed my child with my boobs. i bet this act could solve global warming if i just do it enough. i can't blame him for trying, though. i'm not sure what i would say to a sobbing mess of belly and stretchmarks while just trying to enjoy the latest episode of modern family in peace.
in other, less dramatic and self pitying news, the car seat arrived! we can take baby h3b home when he arrives. plus, i ordered our cloth diapers. now we are only missing one major thing, the mattress, and we'll be all set. i'll spare you the long story about how it was stolen after being delivered to a porch without a signature to a vacant address (partly my fault, but come on!!), since i said this paragraph was drama free. sure there are plenty of things yet to buy and put away, but i'm feeling better about the nursery, worse about the baby blue gray walls, but ok with the way things are playing out. we can bring home a baby and most likely will survive with what we have now :)
but let's wait...
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6/14/09 off bcp
7/9/09 spotting
7/13/09 spotting
7/15/09 faintest line
7/18/09 pregnant
8/11/09 1st appt
9/10/09 1st u/s
11/6/09 20 weeks
11/9/09 u/s=boy!
12/7/09 1lb 11oz
12/23/09 passed glucose
7/9/09 spotting
7/13/09 spotting
7/15/09 faintest line
7/18/09 pregnant
8/11/09 1st appt
9/10/09 1st u/s
11/6/09 20 weeks
11/9/09 u/s=boy!
12/7/09 1lb 11oz
12/23/09 passed glucose
1/15/10 30 weeks
2/19/10 35weeks/35days
2/25/10 water breaks
2/26/10 born @36w
2/19/10 35weeks/35days
2/25/10 water breaks
2/26/10 born @36w
2 comments:
sorry to hear about all of your pregnancy woes - I hear you, those last several weeks are very challenging. you will feel amazing again soon though, like RIGHT AWAY after having the baby, metally, emotionally, phsically - the whole gamut:)
and maybe, just maybe, those marks won't bother you (and fade away) once you feel what it is like to give birth and be a mom - it's very empowering and you might be proud of them in the end. it's not (even slightly) easy to make a baby but you've done it!
and mr. h3b sounds very sweet too. he is on to something, breastfeeding will be a miracle in many ways, and it will heal your body. you've taken great care of yourself and your body will thank you for it soon:)
now go put your feet up! 6 weeks is plenty of time to get things done ;)
Is there anything that Amazon or whoever they shipped with can do about the stolen mattress, or do you have to purchase a new one?
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